im gonna be fine.

"off the grid and in love"  well thats what they said in this blurb that was published more than a decade ago. we were just married. this is where we lived, loved, had dogs, and lived the "hard way" off the land, on the cutting edge, we had no running water, i would always say "yeah we had running water- we had to run and get it" we had little and that worked fine for me. cause this is where i was the luckiest man, and she was the luckiest woman. this is where we were in love. two amazing people about to start a crazy run thru life together. but thats the best of it all, we had each other. still do i reckon. maybe just different than we had thought.

is it over?  i sometimes ask. damn  i really hope not.  we have way too much love to give our son. just maybe different than we thought. so today i am thankful for what is and what is not.i trust that fate will do its thing.  damn i hope it goes my way,  and which way would that be? 

i think you all know.  damn. i miss her.  and that is ok. i reckon. truth hurts. damn.