prayer

horrible picture of a beautiful lady,

she helps me have fun . god bless her, i know i am not the perfect man, but i will try. i know she is not the perfect woman, but i will try to see her that way. she is good to my son, and she is good to me. please god do not let me fuck this up. 

Happy Earth Day/ belated????

I have celebrated the last 15 earth days by installing solar. Hope you guys get a bit of the clean air we try to save. peace my friends . love you guys.

Hello my friends...it has been way to long i know. We have been super-busy with solar installs. Wimberley, TX, DallasTX ,New Mexico etc.  So here is my soL-mate. (pun intended) more friend than lover, although that will most likely change after the ink is dry. Anyway she is my hope for the future of installers and is my best friend right now.  she kicks my ass on a daily basis, nothing goes without comment, I love the honesty. I can only hope that my ex wife finds someone like Melissa in her life.     PEACE OUT  i love you guys.

kickin some ass.

I woke this morning took a shower, smoked one down with some coffee , jumped in the jeep, cranked some black sabbath (supernaut) and as the hair on my neck raised , i felt the power...or the soul? or something. that feeling that every now and then happens. the feeling of kicking the shit out of your enemies , and then they lick your boot to boot. i went to the city and kicked the shit out of my competition.  yeah muther fuckers i sold  24 systems today.   see ya in the funny papers bitch.  

Solar Soldiers

casting our own shadows... always have been, for we are the new, although some of us share not the youth you might expect for the cutting edge.  We cast shadows of doubt, doubt for the old ways of making energy. Hey foolish ones, don't you know that energy cannot be created or destroyed? We cast our shadows on the answers, parts of the puzzle that is our driving forces.

We were told we were wrong, that you will rock the boat, don't bite the hand that feeds you.

We cast shadows with blood dripping from our mouths. Why make the peaceful fight? Did you not know that we are the strong?   We Solar soldiers cast shadows, because the sun stands behind us. Who's got your back? mutherfucker?

YOU MAKE THE WEATHER

It is stormy, raining , wind blowing ,hard driving rain that soaks you to the bone and chills the spine . It is hard to breathe huh? it is hard to think, to walk, to work. yeah open sores collect salt water, mostly from your own eyes huh?

  It gets better... a lot better, trust me.  Thanks for the salt-water bath.  It was painful. 

I get by with a little help from my friends

Well, this is what i do on the weekends. With my buddies Greg and his sweet wife Jodie, we installed the first grid -tied system in washington county. First for bluebonnet -coop too. I hope that my son will have an array to grow up with. Just like his daddy. Conner and Shawn... may this be a gift from your mom and dad that

sows the seeds of a greener Texas.

Greg you are my good friend. You and Jodie rock. 

a day with my boy!

in reverse order of fun. i love my little boy, he kicks ass huh?

do you believe in ghosts?

i was taking pics while camping with  a friend, i wanted to shoot this sunset and this "orb" popped up only in this shot. i then went to the stand of oak trees and found a burial site. a circle of oak trees in  perfect cardinal directions.  it was kinds spooky when we lost all light. got a real good feeling of presence there in the middle.  

happy new year

thank you all of my family all of my friends you all came to my aid when i needed. cheers to you all. you all made it real for me. real good. i love you.

              surfsquatch.

who is that ?

this is how i roll, camping out nothing new ,but love and god or whatever you want to call her, exist in the wild for me this is my church. i never liked to look at pics of me, but now i do. i have lost some 70 pounds since christmas of 07. i kinda trips me out a little. anyway here i am thinner in a un-bifurcated garment. nice hose huh? 

Hawaii, and the solar girl team

ALOHA... here we come big island.

Solar teachers rock the tiki. We are in search of the idol that greg brady lost while surfing the curls."wipe-out".

I will be accompanied by some of the "femme" de la creme of the solar girl world.  Surf in my kilt, get Lai-ed, and  teach.  I lead such a hard life huh?

  

WHY?????????????????

you call me a liar, you write ambiguous lines that lead people down the path of deception, you say i was not there... where were you?? not there for me or our relationship. i was always last. why texas? you knew it killed me. we left and moved handfuls of times, all to make you happy.  you were not. i was not. you made no effort to revive our love. just get the fuck out you say. i did. you left me. again YOU left.  you moved half way around the country to marry me.

but could not find the time to talk to me. you just fuckin left. now i am left with all of your bills, phone calls. you parents talk shit about you, and then me too. treat our son like a fuckin dog why don't you. you old fools.  tell me to grow up again you old alcoholic.  why do i offer twice the child support? why did i take no money? why did i live out of my car for 6 months? why ? because i love you even as you walk and piss all over our  lost love. Your lost love. why ? why? I KNOW NOW.  i will be not missing you when i am in hawaii, i will not be missing you as i make sweet love to her. i will not be missing you as i am on t.v.. i will not be missing you as she grabs me, eager for my love. i will not be missing you as i drive my yuppie vehicle, making my yuppie salary,  running my own school.  i will not be missing you as your friends look at my happiness. i will not miss you as i fest in telluride , as i meet the president. as i surf the west coast, kiss and hug a redwood. i will not feel your tug. i will not miss you and your expectations of the man who broke himself in half for you. your cold  shoulders. i will not miss the lack of sex, dictated by your appointment book. i will not miss you typing all night all week all month. i will not miss your scowl. i will not miss the frigid air that you breathe out only for me. your friends got all of your love, i got sore muscles and no sleep for 4 years. as you eat your chocolate bon bon and ice cream on the toils of my heartache, remember i was the man you loved. i was the man who made all of your comforts a reality.  all on the back of a sweaty, tired , love starved, man. yeah a MAN. you femi-Nazis  can kiss my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!      oh and by the way my ass is looking real nice these days, according to the ladies who wait for the slightest movement to swoop me up.   too late now --------- your loss.

   what the fuck happened to you? what the fuck happened to me?  why?? why now?   fuck you.