my tv show

yeah bitches, watch out for the solar family... underground at the moment.

(or seeds sown)  see ya on the funny papers. watch for me on cable tv. myth busters my ass.  BRING IT.

Divorce, it was your choice.

so here i am teaching a class, hanging with my solar family. i love what i do,

people seem to take to that, and they see my passion in my eyes and within my actions. right now my ex is shredding my character and now her dad joins in too.  takin the high road bitches. bash me all you want on your blog, with your "click" "click". muse not, on our heart break... people are sick... and ready for blood. bleed not your soul to the sharks. i know who i am.

and i am not the guy you make me out to be. want more money? fuckin take it all. it is just money to me. you may try to take my integrity, but it is not yours for the taking. 

"you say good bye ,and i say hello,"

hello life, i'm back . and rebuilt, i feel love that is just around the corner. i can almost touch it. goodbye mere, you sweet, sexy ,momma. and hello meredith winn. my sons momma. i will always be there for ya.  wish me luck with love, i want you to be happy.  i hope you find what it is. i will do the same. good bye love... it was a crazy ride, and i would do it all over again...  no regrets. just love for you as my sons momma. the best momma my son could ask for. peace babe. 

keep on keeping on. thats all i can do. still working for my family although i do not get to be with them, wow never in a million years. she may not love me,but i still do. here  i am again and again and again, loyal to the finish, still standing, still my sons daddy, i am still here. wow i did not think i would make it. all i have is everything. foolin myself?  i dont think so. will i give up?, if you think so i guess, you dont know me. but i know her. and to know her is to love her.  question is do i know myself well enough? there are so many sides to this coin.  "hey friend hows it going where have you been?" -split

im gonna be fine.

"off the grid and in love"  well thats what they said in this blurb that was published more than a decade ago. we were just married. this is where we lived, loved, had dogs, and lived the "hard way" off the land, on the cutting edge, we had no running water, i would always say "yeah we had running water- we had to run and get it" we had little and that worked fine for me. cause this is where i was the luckiest man, and she was the luckiest woman. this is where we were in love. two amazing people about to start a crazy run thru life together. but thats the best of it all, we had each other. still do i reckon. maybe just different than we had thought.

is it over?  i sometimes ask. damn  i really hope not.  we have way too much love to give our son. just maybe different than we thought. so today i am thankful for what is and what is not.i trust that fate will do its thing.  damn i hope it goes my way,  and which way would that be? 

i think you all know.  damn. i miss her.  and that is ok. i reckon. truth hurts. damn.

oh me oh my

 me oh my  with apple pie, with trains and planes and rockets  

how did get here? why did we go there? 

oh me oh my.

with hopes and dreams we had some pets why don't

we just have some ... how did we get there? why did we go there?  oh me oh my.

with old guitars, bleached with sand, why don't you just hold my ... how did we get here? why did we go there? oh me oh my.

      song lyrics, salty but sweet too. my focus...my son. 

cool dudes, warm hearts, awesome souls.

this is my awesome son.

Something good will happen

The healing, the hurting, the strength, the love.

 I just want love in my life.  I want love, I do not need you to make me happy. I make myself feel the way I do. I just want to share. I want respect.. I am here for the long haul, I am truckin'

and haven't moved nay an inch. I have grown much

and shed some too.  Something good will happen.

 today.  i saw my son.