WHY?????????????????

you call me a liar, you write ambiguous lines that lead people down the path of deception, you say i was not there... where were you?? not there for me or our relationship. i was always last. why texas? you knew it killed me. we left and moved handfuls of times, all to make you happy.  you were not. i was not. you made no effort to revive our love. just get the fuck out you say. i did. you left me. again YOU left.  you moved half way around the country to marry me.

but could not find the time to talk to me. you just fuckin left. now i am left with all of your bills, phone calls. you parents talk shit about you, and then me too. treat our son like a fuckin dog why don't you. you old fools.  tell me to grow up again you old alcoholic.  why do i offer twice the child support? why did i take no money? why did i live out of my car for 6 months? why ? because i love you even as you walk and piss all over our  lost love. Your lost love. why ? why? I KNOW NOW.  i will be not missing you when i am in hawaii, i will not be missing you as i make sweet love to her. i will not be missing you as i am on t.v.. i will not be missing you as she grabs me, eager for my love. i will not be missing you as i drive my yuppie vehicle, making my yuppie salary,  running my own school.  i will not be missing you as your friends look at my happiness. i will not miss you as i fest in telluride , as i meet the president. as i surf the west coast, kiss and hug a redwood. i will not feel your tug. i will not miss you and your expectations of the man who broke himself in half for you. your cold  shoulders. i will not miss the lack of sex, dictated by your appointment book. i will not miss you typing all night all week all month. i will not miss your scowl. i will not miss the frigid air that you breathe out only for me. your friends got all of your love, i got sore muscles and no sleep for 4 years. as you eat your chocolate bon bon and ice cream on the toils of my heartache, remember i was the man you loved. i was the man who made all of your comforts a reality.  all on the back of a sweaty, tired , love starved, man. yeah a MAN. you femi-Nazis  can kiss my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!      oh and by the way my ass is looking real nice these days, according to the ladies who wait for the slightest movement to swoop me up.   too late now --------- your loss.

   what the fuck happened to you? what the fuck happened to me?  why?? why now?   fuck you.